Note to Self
Now you have entirely embraced talking to yourself perhaps you might take listening up as well.
Breathe. Take the time to breathe, luxuriate in the flow for a moment. Comprehend the utility of it. A breath can calm you down in a spire of rage, it can dispel a wave of panic or induce the deepest state of tranquil calm. Feel the world move through you, our reliance, our connectivity, help those who can not breath, there is no greater equalizer.
Get dressed everyday you dandy fuck. A day is a day, whether you accept it or not. It’s inevitability surpasses anything you will ever achieve - respect it, dress for it. For every feeling of weariness, dejection and non merci, dress a touch finer.
Moderate your ambition. It’s still there, it will occasionally get out of hand and you’ll always still be working arm in arm with it - but it need not spoil a day. You will not write like Poe tonight, nor come morning. You will not paint with Carravagio’s sophistication at 4am, nor will you a few hours later. You will be you, inescapably so, focus on bettering that for ambition requires dedication.
Be nice. Compliment someone. Humans seem to like that (odd I know). Be a friend, to strangers and kin and all between.
Drink water. It’s tragically not fucking difficult. 2L daily (minimum). Not coffee, not cider, not whisky, not wine. WINE IS NOT WATER; Wine is not water, wine is not water. (wine not water?).
Loosen up. It’s not illegal to smile and even if it were that shouldn’t stop you. Laughing is a necessity. Say yes to people rather than projects more often. You can’t plan spontaneity but you can stop blocking it.
Be aware of the moment. Whether it be composing a poem, walking through the woods, listing to Beethoven, having a conversation or simply scrolling through social media. Pay attention and do it with CONVICTION. Step out of the mess that’s in your head, leave the voices behind (well; most of the voices, some of them are funny) and notice that details in every moment. Be your best self in every moment. Don’t let moments slip away before you’ve appreciated them.
Listen to yourself occasionally. Both the moments where you make sense or otherwise. Be gentle and understanding and recognize the fact that you are stuck with you; so put in some effort to make that relationship the most positive you have.
